House church has been kind of drifting too (I had a picture of our church with a line from a Matt Good song: "I'm just a boat on the ocean, I'm just a ship lost at sea." with the missing, "wind of the spirit fill the sails of my soul, send us on Lord."
My craving, as far as learning at church goes, is to pick a few things, say four each year, and go deep with them. Come at them from different angles. And please spare me weekly, or even biweekly long lectures. They don't teach me, they asleep me. I need interaction, and most importantly I need action. It needs to become practical quickly. And then we need to practice. And practice some more. And keep practicing until it's normal. Until it's routine. Until it's unstoppable and won't fade away.
And so I put this idea forward to our house church and Kirk took it and actually came up with some very personal, and fantastic, and inspiring options for growth. I got excited. What do I want to become?
I want to become a gardener. I want to grow vegetables, and herbs, and berries, and trees. I want to play in the dirt.
I want to become strong. I want to run and climb, and jump, and hike, and bike, balance and stretch.
I want to remember how to pray all day. I want to take celtic prayers (a prayer for each activity). I want to become prayerful.
I want to listen for and to God each day. I want to overcome fear of silence, and getting it jumbled and wrong, and ignoring him. I want to become prophetic.
I want to become handy, creative, and constructive. I want to tackle house projects and renos. I want to gain skills and experience, and confidence, and art.
I want to remember how to be a friend to more than just one. I want to save my poor extroverted spirit who shrivels trying to become all these other things alone.
I want to remember that scripture can be alive. I want it to speak to everything I become.
2 comments:
I like this list of wants, Nolan. Praying for you as you go after them.
I like this list of wants to Nolan, but have patience in time you will see doors open up for each thing on this list right now. God is preparing the soil for each want you listed. As annoying as that was for me to hear because I just wanted to do it all right away. I now have doors opening up for me and I had to wait like 2 years or more. I will be praying for you. I can only imagine what your garden will look like. Rest with God he probably has words to breath into your spirit. Love you lots.
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